Citadel II – Urban Fox

Released : 26th December 1995

Personnel

Peter Nuttall - Music/Lyrics/Vocals
Douglas Hunter - Lyrics
Nicola Dunn - Lyrics

This was a companion album to Citadel EP which was released in June. It contained songs written with lyrics that had remained unused from the original Citadel sessions and a few unearthed gems. ‘Used, abused and confused’ was on a tape Doug gave me from a previous songwriting partnership. I just re-did the music and recorded a new vocal. As you can tell, I was still listening to a lot of Gary Numan and it felt like there would never be a Fox album without a cover of one of his tunes. I’d discovered multi-tracking by this point so ‘Demons and Angels’ was given a make-over with harmonies, which seemed to work quite well. ‘Give back life’ would have been perfect on the Vicious Sky EP but at the time I didn’t know there’d be enough material for another release within three weeks of this album so it went on here as a bonus track.

- Peter

I’m feeling so much pain

That’s proof that I love you

I won’t go through it again

That’s proof that I lost you

Will I feel better?

‘Cause now I’m sad

I got your letter

That told me what I had

Chorus

Feeling anger (Won’t help)

Feeling later (Won’t heal)

Feeling danger (Won’t cope)

Feeling emotion (Won’t feel)

I’ve lost before and coped

But if I lost you I’d surely die

Here comes the day I knew

Would make me cry

Lyrics/Music – Nuttall

10/12/95

Whose was the last voice I heard?

Who said the unspoken word?

I never knew I could hate

I never knew just how late

Which way did I see the wind blow?

Which way? Oh, I don’t know

Now I know I must forget her

Before my conscience slips under

Chorus

GONE? FOUND?

I think I know you

LOST? HERE?

I thought I knew you

Echoes of the real thing

The only words that we can sing

Now I start to cry

See my life well it’s rushing by

Lyrics/Music – Nuttall

11/12/95

Thought I’d given up on love

‘til you walked in

Was the feeling only ‘love’?

When you walked in

Thought I wouldn’t love again

‘til you walked in

Thought I was so free of pain

Then you walked in

Crying out, hear me now

I won’t be here

Calling out, hear me now

I won’t be here

Chorus

Now I won’t feel anymore

When my tears fell to the floor

Only one fear, locked in this tear, “No more!”

Never told myself the truth

‘til you walked in

Never broken from my ‘Youth’

‘til you walked in

Thought I’d be alone tonight

Just one Doubt?

Never thought I’d be so right

As you walked out

Lyrics – Nuttall 19/12/95 20:17:30 Tuesday

Music – Nuttall 20/12/95 00:10:00 Wednesday

I sit so silently waiting on the ocean shore

Nothing mindless worth hating, I won't feel that no more

Water reflects my fear so blue

Tears flood my eyes, like the life I never knew

Stare gently at the sea

Life was never fair

I hear the waves calling me

I respond without a care

Slowly I descend to the water’s edge

There’s nothing left for me

I don't know where I am

There's nothing left to see

Into Darkness I slowly wade

Simple truth, no need to try

All my fears start to fade

All dissolved with one final sigh

Lyrics – Dunn

Music – Nuttall

24/12/95

Those days are over

Never return

I’m only nothing

Won’t stay to burn

In this life won’t I?

Get things so nice

Throw them away

Then give back life

If I could understand

How luck changed without sound

Never opinion of what might be

Until you are ‘said’ to be around

Rewritten everything you said

Could be alone in someone’s bed

Could be alone until the sun set

Until our ‘friends’ say nothing yet

This isn’t all I have to say

Could be together ‘til we rise

You told me nothing yesterday

It’s only my mind I despise

Tell me I could leave

Then I’ll believe your poisoned mind

Never a time to believe

In things that turn out so unkind.

Lyrics/Music – Nuttall

28/12/95

The party’s ending it’s just me and this blonde you understand

She’s a girl and I’m a man

She fell for the old poetic jive

Baby I’ve waited years for you to arrive

I need somewhere to stay, too late to go home

She said why don’t you follow me, I hate being alone

When we got to her place, that’s when she told me outright

She said “look, I don’t wanna have fun for just one night”

I don’t wanna be the one they call Blondie any longer

I don’t want a drink, I need something stronger

She said

I’ve been used abused and confused

But now I found you I won’t feel it no more

I fell in love with her body only

I didn’t have the heart to walk out the door

Gigolos get lonely too

Here’s what Maurice sang

Guess that feeling comes to just about every man

She had an effect that I can’t explain

I guess we both helped to ease each other’s pain

That night I knew it just wouldn’t work

When I see her now

Lord knows how it hurts

One night of fun or being used abused and confused

It’s just too much for any man to choose.

Lyrics/Music – Hunter/Hutchinson

Rewritten – Nuttall

01/07/95

Are you happy? I hope so

It was hard to let go

Now I'm ok I've grown like you

Learned how to get through

Get through every day

Don’t talk for too long

I don't think I'm that strong

Strong enough to take the pain

Look to heaven to the sky and try not to cry

Through seeing you again

Chorus

Let it rain on me here

Wash away all my tears, the tears in my eyes

Let it rain on me here

Wash away all my tears, please just turn walk on by

It's just a memory, we've drifted apart

Mend my broken heart

I close my eyes and wish you were here

Remember me strong

(Don't want you to see me this way)

Lyrics – Hunter 24/3/95

Music – Nuttall 29/8/95

(Later found out the tune was the same as the oboe solo on ‘Black’s’ ‘sweetest smile’)